I want to cautiously voice 📣 that the following are not strongly held "opinions" but rather attempts to transparently put forth extremely hard questions rattling around in my head and the ensuing research towards them.

I intend to use this post/page/writing to reach others that might have similar thoughts/questions.

Please, please don't think me evil questioning/considering reality, religiousness, social norms, sexuality, etc. I do not wish to hinder my professional work through this writing and I will do everything in my power to partition these thoughts from my practiced/business work even in places where mathematical philosophy, computer science and software engineering might cross paths.

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background bits

As a sort of "personal mission statement", I want to strive to identify my personal biases or any potential life context that might result in a strong opinion one way or another.

To contextualize my life thus far:

  • I am a confirmed Catholic.
    • My father grew up a non-practicing Italian Catholic who found Catholicism through my mother's Irish Catholic family and through raising his own family.
    • My mother grew up a practicing Irish Catholic who was raised within the sacraments (baptism, confirmation, eucharist, matrimony, etc.)
    • Through Catholocism,
      • I have been baptised.
      • I have been confirmed.
      • I have taken the Eucharist.
      • I have confessed my sins through penance.
      • I attended "prayer school religion" once a week through 9th grade.
  • I grew up in East Cobb (Marietta/Roswell) Georgia.
  • I attended Georgia Institute of Technology.
  • I spent 3 separate periods of study and work abroad living in Barcelona, Spain
    • Summer 2014
    • Summer 2015
    • January 2016 - August 2016
  • I helped found the company Glovo with a friend I met Georgia Tech (Oscar Pierre).
    • I joined May 2015.
  • I helped found the company FIXD with friends at Georgia Tech (Julian Knight, John Gattuso, Fred Grimm, Eric Pate).
    • I joined January 2017.
  • I attended a 10 day Vipassana course at Dhamma Patāpa in August 2015.
  • I attempted to start a company from a friend's thesis paper by applying to Y Combinator for the summer 2017 term.
  • I currently live in New York city.

Other "statements"?

  • I don't presume to hide my biases.
  • I heartedly attempt to relinquish my biases.
  • I am a privileged white male.
  • I am fortunate to have no personal debt.
  • I am not currently practicing any single religion.

personal philosophic identification

A good friend of mine once referred to these "thought chains" as anti-nihilistic:

Anti-nihilists are courageous because they dare to turn the tables on nihilism. They embrace nihilism. But rather than dwell on it, rather than drown in the glass-is-half-empty ennui of it all, they decide to swim, and they keep swimming.

It’s our meaninglessness within which to create my own meaning. It’s our illusion to play with. We are the ones laughing at the cosmic joke instead of merely being the butt-end of it.

from https://fractalenlightenment.com/35998/life/authentic-existentialism-from-nihilism-to-anti-nihilism

Some might recoil at this label, but I think it's a wonderful example of breaking free of a formalized system by taking the converse. Anti-nihilism is different than the "opposite of nihilism".

links that provoked this "article"

people

  • just above "acquaintance" kind of folks (reachables?):
    • Yuri I. Manin
    • Joe Rogan
    • Firas Zahabi
    • Sam Harris (Wikipedia)
    • Jordan Peterson
      • changes in human rights code with relevance to his work in Ontario
    • Nick Kokonas
      • owner of Alinea restaurants
      • king of the human experience
    • Lawrence Krauss
  • Tim Ferriss
  • modern "entrepreneurs":
    • Elon Musk
    • Peter Thiel (Zero to One)
    • Bill Gates
  • historical "academics":
    • Aristotle
    • Newton
    • Descartes
    • Thomas Coon
    • Stephen Hawking
    • Einstein
    • Bertrand Russel
  • acquaintances (if you'd like your name taken down then please feel free to contact):
    • Nina Stepanov
    • Mike Zawadski
    • Hersh Patel
    • Anthony O'Sullivan
    • Aaron Harnly
    • Karl Sofinowski
    • Jack Woods
    • Aldo Beqiraj
    • Pooja Thakrar
    • Oscar Pierre
    • Adnane Oa
    • Jesse Vogel

thoughts

  • object permanence
    • baby seeing mother in selfie cam
  • physical law is through observation
  • heads or tails is through logic or history of coins?
    • coin flip into a butterfly
  • is randomness a law of nature
    • randomness is ignorance?
    • the measure of truth is opinion?
    • corrsepondence theory
  • Kante
  • Pierre-Simon Laplace
  • "science is faith that the future will behave like the past"
  • "science is the use of measurement to understand what's around us"
  • water can resist boiling up til a number past 100 celcius
  • show you knives:
    • Aristotle says they share in one essence that makes them knives
    • sword vs knife (objective? subjective?)
    • now matter, matter is an inference of the mind
  • e = mc^2
  • a train moving at lightspeed in an arc from points B to C around a center point A where distance BC is the same as AB and AC
    • Einstein talking about a light flipping on in the train car that is on the roof of the train car
    • the light is moving slower in the car than it is moving relative to the person standing at point A
  • Occam's Razor "believe what you observe"
    • everything with a doubt you chop it
    • everything imaginary you chop
    • trascend all paradigms
      • mystics -> religion is true and science is faith
      • consciousness not the content of consciousness
      • brain is within consciousness
        • no more paradoxes
        • outside of your ego
  • materialism
    • epiphenominalism
      • consciousness is like a smoke
      • brains are dependent on consciousness
      • idealism "there is no phyiscal object outside of consciousness"
  • when someone dies is the universe still the universe?
  • triangle 180 degrees
    • can you picture a triangle without color?
  • voxel vs Euclidean geometry vs dimensional theory vs triangle meshes
  • is there a better way than friction to stop a car?
  • truth vs belief
    • electronic blanket warmth and then later see a flame
    • Descartes = science is doubtable
    • "cartesian doubt"
    • man is more and more precise but science is based on faith that future behaves like the past
    • history is truth?
    • paradigm shift Thomas Coon shades
  • teach your children the that what is popularly known as red is actually blue
  • reality is a thought experiment?
  • cogito
    • "I think; therefore, I am."
      • straw in water then it is bent (eyes lied)
      • hand in cold water it will seem warm (my bias, my instruments are not accurate enough)
      • deduction and math 1+1=2
        • philosophers disagree with math
        • 1+1=2 -> critique 1+1 is 2 there is no other information
        • helps give epiphany
        • f(x) there is a lower pattern (it's always been two things)
          • isomorphism vs tautology
        • Bertrand Russell gives the information again
        • Cante says math tells you something
      • all greatest thinkers in history all disagree
        • Liebnitz and Voltaire
        • Sam Harris and Jordan Peterson
      • we cannot use logic because we can't get to conclusion we can all agree upon
      • doubt everything (what if I'm dreaming?)
    • Imam Razelli
    • Rene Descarte
    • crisis that "it's all explanation and not proof"
    • science gets refined with more information
    • today's paradigm will be changed 100 years from now
    • at end of cartesian doubt "modern philosophy"
    • 6 chapters in 6 days
  • immutable documentation
    • this document and the commit hashes for this
    • Slack service for adding data into this privately
    • Twitter for public quotes that retain thread-ability
    • "how-doc"
    • "why-doc"
  • dogmatic vs prophetic
  • "God is the future to which we make sacrifices"
  • ignorance is evil?
    • like not knowing about a disease?
    • there is an incubation period that acts like a "zero"
    • this incubation period is a period of discovery
    • although there is no detection for some up to a while you're in the "zero period"
    • this zero period describes a lack of observable information
    • ignorance is an infection until you accept ignorance
    • that's a zero to a negative one
    • if zero is complacency and 1 is movement then we need ternary for true life detail
    • it's not heaven and hell though
    • it's the z value oscillating over an expanding universe
    • the expansion is the derivation
    • derivative = history
    • integration = future
    • -1 = past
    • 0 is current
    • 1 is future
    • so to go zero to 1 makes sense in this context
  • money is immutability as ignorance
    • such ignorance is a bandwidth reliever
    • such bandwidth relievers are like 1+1=2
    • anything that reduces space in the pipe is towards a new contextual zero
  • talking to someone and only catching up provokes travel in order to truly connect or talk to someone
    • this inherint path forward is what makes humanity want to internationalize and what breaks down barriers
    • Romeo and Juliet style
    • Rosalia flamenco and electronic
  • mice with brainlock and the "Homer Simpson" gene
    • why did humans reach the brainlock gene before all the other animals?
    • evolution is/was a race?
    • harken back to Merlin in the Once and Future king and the need for fiction as a teaching Instrument
    • humans were given one tool and they chose the tool of tools... The first evolutionary derivative
    • choice = happiness?
    • but only when observable choice comes along and serves a basis for some amount of discovery through finding a new flavor?
  • holding pole of subway and thinking someone else's hand is yours
    • same feeling as meditation mistaken identity because so external
  • the human collective
    • Lambda school has too many engineers
    • how do we have another renaissance of art and thought? When through art we strive for isomorphisms in nature or science
    • time to spare is the opposite or Times Square
  • ennui = man's ultimate enemy?
    • definition: a feeling of listlessness and dissatisfaction arising from a lack of occupation or excitement
    • synonyms: boredom, tedium, listlessness, lethargy, lassitude, languor, restlessness, weariness, sluggishness, enervation

Cognitive Networks: Brains, Internet, and Civilizations (2017)

  • there is the concept of "conscious sensory perceptions" where ”I see” means ”I know that I see” ... hmmmm
  • ok, so it was conjectured that the brain contains inside a map of itself, and that some neural information channels in the central neural system do certain things but pause here...
  • working the other day on RSA asymmetric cryptography through open idc and how one way private key signing can be verified through a public key and there's no way through parsing a public key to ever re-sign back to what once was
  • so what if our brains operated the same way? we sign our thoughts using our collective wisdom that is a discrete model only ever at delta t and every thought can only ever be parsed using a "public key" that is the collective experience everyone has ever had interpreting me
  • ha so then a "soul" can only ever exist with a public key comprised of n > 1 social entities oh ok, that's why the Bible starts with both an Adam and an Eve, cool
  • so how many of y'all ever worked with protobuf or the concept of (de)serialization? let's think of the human brain as a payload of protobuf who's containing .proto schema only ever exists inside of the payload itself the same way that AI can mutate it's "rule-set"
  • so if our schema is always a function of delta t or hell let's say time doesn't exist in our brains then we're pretty much hosed to ever figure out the brain but we can still implement a protocol based on this infrastructure - that's one hell of a mesh network though...

Vipassana meditation

  • notice what arises in consciousness
  • noticing takes so much concentration
  • feel identical to the sentence in your head
  • how could a thought define subjectivity?
  • hearing the sound of voice in appearance of consciousness
  • thinking without knowing that your thinking
  • playing a video game where not losing in the same boss fight over and over again
  • linguistic thoughts are structured as though conversation
    • like playing chess?
  • normal state of consciousness chased out of bed by thoughts is not the happy place and is not the alternative
  • the goal is not to have a mind without thoughts
    • it's about intentional thought
  • what is mindfulness?
  • infinitesimally to the smallest degree recognizing your blood boiling from anger or joy
  • is mindfulness a superpower?
  • sensory deprivation

Woo-Woo (Gremlins)

Joe Rogan and Lawrence Krauss

  • space is infinite but light is constant
  • everything we see emerged from a single point
  • what if there were more big bangs
  • all big bangs are separate splashes
  • is it another universe?
  • universe: that region of space that at one time we could have communicated but in the future we could communicate with
  • Gauge theory - Wikipedia

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